I Just Realized I am Saved

As I twirled around my living room listening to music and thinking to myself. I began to realize that I am truly a different person. I mean, I said a prayer at 12 years old asking God to come into my heart and save me. Who knew from there I would take a ride that I would never forget. I am almost 42 years old and I have just realized that from the age of 12 up until about a few years ago God only crossed my mind when I needed something, and the things that I was asking for would have allowed me to gain my treasures on Earth instead of in Heaven, I was so deceived...So glad you said no to my wicked wishes God. I used to try and read the Bible but I found it boring and hard to understand. You see at the time I was trying to read the Bible I was drinking to get drunk, emotionally cheating on my husband, lying, looking lustfully upon other men and I still kept telling myself I believed in God almighty. When in reality all I was given was lip service, because I was still in the world doing the same things that the world do I looked no different,and my fruit was a lil suspect. I was going to church thinking I was learning something when all I was learning was what the Pastor was telling me that day. I did not know if it was true....why you ask...well, because I would not read my word. I got so tired of not being able to pay my bills or buy the things that I wanted. I began to blame my husband. I would say in mind, he’s not a good provider, and this was because he could not afford to buy my all the worldly things I wanted. I mean I needed to look good when I went out, right. I had to turn heads. I needed their confirmation that I looked good.

After our family made the very hard decision to leave the church we were attending something else happened. I began to seek God like nobodies business, and the more I seeked him the more wisdom I obtained, and the more my eyes were opened. I no longer chase riches and wealth, I only chase Jesus now! Now, I truly know what it feels like to be content in any situation. You see! My husband and I have accumulated all this materialistic stuff over the years and now, God has brought us back over and over again to the same financial situation for 20 years and after 20 years our family has finally realized that he does not want us to hustle for the money to pay for these materialistic earthly things that we have acquired, but he wants us to throw up our hands and surrender it all to him. If that means we lose a car or two then so be it. Matthew 6:24 says no one can serve two masters, for either he wi