Updated: Apr 7
As I twirled around my living room listening to music and thinking to myself. I began to realize that I am truly a different person. I mean, I said a prayer at 12 years old asking God to come into my heart and save me. Who knew from there I would take a ride that I would never forget. I am almost 42 years old and I have just realized that from the age of 12 up until about a few years ago God only crossed my mind when I needed something, and the things that I was asking for would have allowed me to gain my treasures on Earth instead of in Heaven, I was so deceived...So glad you said no to my wicked wishes God. I used to try and read the Bible but I found it boring and hard to understand. You see at the time I was trying to read the Bible I was drinking to get drunk, emotionally cheating on my husband, lying, looking lustfully upon other men and I still kept telling myself I believed in God almighty. When in reality all I was given was lip service, because I was still in the world doing the same things that the world do, I looked no different, and my fruit was a lil suspect. I was going to church thinking I was learning something when all I was learning was what the Pastor was telling me that day. I did not know if it was true....why you ask...well, because I would not read my word. I got so tired of not being able to pay my bills or buy the things that I wanted. I began to blame my husband. I would say in mind, he’s not a good provider, and this was because he could not afford to buy me all the worldly things I wanted. I mean I needed to look good when I went out, right. I had to turn heads. I needed their confirmation that I looked good.
After our family made the very hard decision to leave the church we were attending something else happened. I began to seek God like nobodies business, and the more I seeked him the more wisdom I obtained, and the more my eyes were opened. I no longer chase riches and wealth, I only chase Jesus now! Now, I truly know what it feels like to be content in any situation. You see! My husband and I have accumulated all this materialistic stuff over the years and now, God has brought us back over and over again to the same financial situation for 20 years and after 20 years our family has finally realized that he does not want us to hustle for the money to pay for these materialistic earthly things that we have acquired, but he wants us to throw up our hands and surrender it all to him. If that means we lose a car or two then so be it. Matthew 6:24 says no one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money. So if you are out here going to work everyday just to pay the bills, getting second jobs to accumulate more money to buy more materialistic things, and you are not doing anything in or out of the job to further God's Kingdom...then you are working for the money, and you are not serving God, so that means you must be serving who? The God of this World, Ol Satan himself. The word of God also says He who loves money will not be satisfied with money, nor he who loves wealth with his income; this also is VANITY(Ecclesiastes 5:10)! And what did Jesus tell his disciples in Matthew 16:24-26, He said if anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. God wants you to thirst no more for the things of this world and follow him. That means believing in Jesus Christ, that he died and was raised from the dead to cover your sins, obeying his word, reading his word, and REPENT, REPENT, REPENT! A Prayer Does Not Save You From Hell!